I know nothing


Finally an opportunity arose to take part in a vision quest ceremony. The group was small – we were 9 – and the location familiar.
Though I knew about the plant and its strong potential effects, I was very relaxed before drinking. The first round didn’t do much for me, so I asked to drink a second time: then it really hit me. The nausea was so strong that I did purge for the first time of my life. It was as if thin black snakes were coming out of me screaming.
I had set my intentions to look for certain answers, but the plant kept me going to unexpected territories, underlining issues I was not at all paying attention to.
Mostly one message kept one coming back in waves: I know nothing. I purged again (this time emotional episodes), I had beautiful visions, some anxiety, some more nausea, but all night long, the same thing was whispered to my ears: “I know nothing”.

Upon sharing this with my friend Yalila, she sent me this beautiful quote:

When I look inside and see that I am nothing that is wisdom.
When I look outside and see that I am everything, that is love.

Nasargadatta maharaj